God is in control...

God is in control... I know, it sounds so cliché.  We’ve all heard it a million times… But have you ever actually thought about what that really means?

This means that God is in control of each and every situation that happens to us every single day.

A few weeks ago I received news that my unborn baby girl, that I am currently carrying, was severely anemic. She had signs of fluid around her heart and brain from the anemia.  The doctor told me the baby needed a blood transfusion immediately to attempt to save her. Even with the transfusion there was no guarantee that she would make it. Her little heart was having to pump very hard and if something didn’t happen quick, her heart would give out.

Now let me just share with you that naturally I am the type of person to worry over every single thing in my life... Bad weather, a little stomach ache, a bee that flies by, etc. You name it- I worry about it.

The day I received this news I asked God to just give me peace. I prayed, and prayed, and prayed all day, “Lord, I don’t know what to ask you, but please just give me peace." 

I remember sitting on my living room couch with tears rolling down my face looking at at a sign on my wall that says, “Peace is not the absence of conflict, but the presence of God.”  I’ve had that sign in my living room over three years, and until now I haven’t given it much thought.

At that same time, it hit me that God would provide for me what I was asking for. God knew exactly what I needed right then and there, and I can trust Him to provide peace for me when something could seem so hopeless.

We expect peace to come when things go our way. We expect peace to come when we get along perfect with our siblings or parents. But, the truth is that peace comes when we become OK with God’s will in every situation of our life.

Peace came to me through this storm when I decided I would be OK no matter what the outcome of our baby. My hopes and dreams were for this baby to survive, but what I decided was that God’s will is always going to be better then what I hope and dream for. It was such a relief to me when I let go and just trusted God. I knew down deep in my heart that if the baby lived- it would be good. And if the baby didn’t make it-it would be good. Why? Because we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him.